RAWR

NESSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
WE ARE SO NOT GIVING PHIL A FAREWELL!!!!!!!! D<

Lol.
Slightly pissed off because nessa and I weren't invited to Philip's farewell.
According to Leo, it's "cell and leaders only".
VAT RUBBISH IS DIS?!

Sigh.
At Nicole's house now, she's getting ready to sleepover at Han Rick's.
Blah.

blipblipblip

"Ever felt like the whole world had a plan, and no one ever told you about it?" - American Dreams

All the time.

Anyway, my CNY's been pretty awesome. (: Had a blast with Nicole and Marcia today, we trawled the whole of Midvalley. God, my legs hurt. ;p
Going to Tabby's tomorrow. I have tuition tomorrow night, I have no idea how I'm going to pull it off. I think I might have a dinner. Hmm.

I haven't done any homework whatsoever.
It's like, homework oblivion.
I don't know what i just said.

I have to stop sleeping at 1 ever night. It's insane!
Alright.
Goodnight people. (:
Way too lazy to put in any colour.

I feel Anger bubbling.

How dare they.

How dare these Taleban militants deny the children in Pakistan their education.

How dare they refuse young girls their right to learn?

What gives them the authority to barge into these schools, pull the children out, and destroy the schools?

Who gave them that authority?

No one, NO ONE has the authority to take away the rights of these children to know, to learn, to be educated.

ESPECIALLY the girls.

These people are denying an entire GENERATION of young Pakistani girls their education.

Why?

Why why why WHY?

Maulana Shah Dauran, I hope you BURN.

Seriously.

Who told you to go ahead and ban girls from going to school?

And blow up schools?

This is ridiculous.

meep.

Huh.

My mom has some kind of problem with dates. Ever since our church happily established without actually checking with us youths first that Dating is only allowed when we're 18.

Quite honestly, I think that's a little bit dumb.

First off, how would someone from the outside know that you're matured enough to date? You could be 18 and still not be ready. You could be 20 and still be immature. You could be 50 and still not be "old" enough to date. I mean, please.

Secondly, setting an age limit for youths just make us want to rebel more. DUHHHHHH HAVEN'T YOU PEOPLE LEARNED BY NOW?! Gosh.

I personally don't see anything wrong with dating. Like I said before, dating doesn't necessarily mean that you're boyfriend/girlfriend, going to be all kissy kissy touchy touchy huggy huggy. A date could be just something you go on to get to know the other person better before deciding to embark on something a little more serious. It could work out, it might not, but how would we know unless we tried?

Okay, in Christian-minded Godly thinking, I think we should think like Pastor Sam. There is no such age limit. Dating is fine. Having a significant other is fine. As long as you've got your life on the right track, and you're right before God, then hey! For all you know, it could be God's plan right? Let's say you're 17 and the most perfect guy comes along, and you're totally right with God and everything, but you say, Oh, I can't date till I'm 18 coz the church says so, and then this guy gets tired of waiting for you because, well, I wouldn't be surprised, I'd get tired too, and then he decides that maybe he should go and try his luck somewhere else. Then you would have COMPLETELY missed out on God's plan! God would be sitting up there, knuckling his forehead and saying, "Aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooo!"

SEE?!?!

In the non-Christian not-so-Godly thinking, I say HEY GO RIGHT AHEAD BABY. Date all you want, because, well, its scientifically proven that people, not just teens, date in order to find the right partner. It makes sense right?! And plus, I wouldn't want to be forty and have my kid arguing with me about dating. Then it'll come to a part where she'll say, "How would you know, Mom, you were such a matron! You didn't date till you were 18 coz the CHURCH told you not to!"

What about your heart?

Maybe this seems like such a shallow topic, but I don't think it is, especially among church-goers. Seriously, think about it.

WAH.

I am so tired. Well, not as tired as Debbie because she sleeps at 3 to 4 in the morning. Which is INSANE, Debbie, yes I'm talking to you and people DIE from the lack of sleep or if they don't die, they suffer from DEPRESSION and ANXIETY and OTHER TERRIBLE THINGS. So go to freaking sleep Debbie, because YOU REALLY NEED IT. This is all in caps lock because I CARE MUA HA HA.

SLEEP.

NOW.

STOP READING.

Anyway.

I just got back from Kiran's Hawaiian vs. Pirates themed birthday. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIDNEYBEANBAT!!!!! :D

I had a great time today, thnks so muchies. ^^

-squish-

I'm going to sleep now, all that cake and soft drink buzz has worn off.

Nights everyone. (:

sniffle.

"Don't let the doctor in, I wanna go out screaming." - Fallout Boy, 20 Dollar Nose Bleed.

Yes, I have a slight cold. ;p

Thursday is going to be MADNESS! 

For me, anyway.

The auditions for Forensic's duo acting, solo acting and OI were today. Good luck everybody! ^^ Specially Mishi and Mallini and Debbie.

Do you have any idea how much I have to pay school? It's insane!

RM 15 for class photo. Which SUCKS, because I have to pay ANOTHER RM 55 for ANOTHER class photo. Ridiculous, right?!?

Then, I have to pay for Hotspot. That one I don't mind.

Then I have to pay all my subs.

RM5 for all of Hermine, Photoclub, Cheer club and ELDS.

Like, WHOAAAA.

Money, money money.

Must be reallyreally funny

In a rich man's world.

Except for the billionaire who committed suicide.

HAHAHA.

:X

OMG. There are two concerts I really really wanna go for.

Jason Mraz.

FALLOUT BOY.

ESPECIALLY FALLOUT BOY.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!

And Ivan got tix for Jason Mraz. No fair, Ivan, no fair. ):

Why do Fallout Boy, my darlings, have to go to Singapore?

That is chewing-gum-less land! XDD

THEY DON'T SELL CHEWING GUM!

YOU CAN'T LITTER!

YOU CAN'T SPIT ON THE ROAD!

Not that I think Fallout Boy do either of the last two. XD

But yeah. Why Singapore? ;.;

Turns out he was in the hospital last night.

You guys know who HE is.

Uhm.

Lol.

He's okay. Has the stomach flu. 

Poor thaaang. ):

Anyway, I should go now, it's raining. When it rains, there might be thunder, and then there might be lightning, and then there might be trouble. Capeesh? ;p

Bye ya'll.

I'm feeling much happier. (:

squee~

i got nothing.

just bored. and thought i'd update.

as visible, i'm too lazy to do the whole proper writing thing. caps lock and all.

i knw it doesn't take much effort.

i'm tired.

night.

Alright!

Okay. I'm going to listen to Leonard, and I'mma stop freaking out.

YES.

Uhm, thanks loads Leo, for last night. You really helped me out. (: -hug-

The Assunta Photography Club blog is up and running!! Everybody cheer! :P

I've got BK class today at DUMC.

Kathleen's coming with me. ^^

I don't have much to update you guys on. Except, thank you all for the support. I know that it's just a really small problem that I have blown out of propertion because I'm such a drama queen. XD

But yeah, I really appreciate you guys.

You guys rock! ^^

Pthack.

"Romeo, save me, I've been feeling so alone, I keep waiting for you but you never come, is this in my head, I don't know what to think." - Taylor Swift, Love Story.

Okay, I have a really good explanation as to why I didn't go to school today.

Have you ever gotten a muscle cramp while sleeping?

Yeah, I got that.

At like, 4.30am. I woke up like writhing around coz it hurt so damn bad. GAH.

And then I woke up this morning not being able to walk without hobbling and looking like a complete IDIOT.

So Mom said, "How?"

And I looked at her and said, "I dunno, you tell me! You're the mother here!"

So we woke my dad up and he said don't need.

x3

It still hurts alright!! And it's no bonus, coz I can't walk properly, which means I can't go out. Which means I can't go shopping. ;.;

NO CHINESE NEW YEAR SHOPPING TILL IT GETS BETTER..... ;.;

Mom's laughing at me. D<

Anyway. I have BM tuition tonight.

And then I'm going to attempt Mission Impossible.

Mel knows.

Mel is my moral support ATM.

I really hope this works.

New Tactics..

.. That I'm not going to tell you about. ;p

"Romeo, save me." -  Taylor Swift, Love Story.

Anyway. Spent the day feeling not as fretty as I did last night. Except when I was talking to Mal. I think I was going at a hundred and ten miles an hour, poor girl had to listen to me.

Thanks Mal! <3

Tomorrow I have Photography Club meeting.

OHMIGOSHHH.

Haha.

I don't know what I'm going to say.

AUGH.

Nerves, nerves, spazz, spazz.

Spazzy like my Internet.

I don't know what's happening to me.

Maybe it's hormones.

Hooooo.

It suddenly seems that there are a whole lot of people joining the Photography Club. Which kind of scares the living daylights out of me. I'm not sure what to do.

I don't even know what I'm supposed to talk about tomorrow.

AAGH.

Saw Kaneges today!! ^^ She straightened her hair. She looks pretty good. (:

We ransacked her bag. >3

-sings- Whoooaaawhoathethunder~ 

Oh gosh, I am going mad.

No wait. It's just Fallout Boy. :3

Okay. I suppose I'll leave now and not babble anymore. Like Mayu says. I babble for a living. XD

I do! Right? Hahah.

AND I'm clumsy. Gosh.

I'm afraid of the canteen floor. Because it's so darn'd slippery. So like.. My clumsiness + slippery floors = doom.

It hasn't happened yet.

But I predict it will. Sometime.

mmf.

"I came here to make you dance tonight ; I don't care about my guilty pleasures for you." - Cobra Starship, Guilty Pleasures.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do or think.

How to react.

Am I over-reacting?

Possibly.

Most probably.

But I can't get him out of my head.

This is insanity.

I need.. Something.

I don't know what.

I feel like my heart is about to burst out of my chest at the very thought of him.

My fingers and toes go numb.

I smile to myself.

And then.. I start to worry.

Like, INSANE worrying.

What if he didn't like me? What if I'm not good enough? Why hasn't he contacted me? Am I totally overreacting (the answer to this is YES.)? Did I do anything to scare him off? 

Questions, questions.

I'm going to go nuts.

Wait. 

I already am.

Fly.

"Fingers trace your every outline ; Paint a picture with my hand." - Maroon 5, Sunday Morning.

Teehee.

Okay anywayy.

I have.. What do I have tomorrow? 

I forgot.

Ah. English.

And English Lit.

I know how I can go for Forensics to support Mishi and Debbie and all and see hot boys without actually participating! 8D

I can go as the -jengjengjengjeng- official photographer!!!

-applause-

Hopefully. 

I really want a polariser. ;.;

And that magazine I saw in Amcorp the other day (and I do mean the other day XD) about fashion photography.

WAH!

Lol.

Ben is leaving tomorrow night.

T.T

Bye Ben. I'll miss you and your awkwardness. ;.;

Kay, I'll go now since I don't have anything remotely interesting to say. I already exploded. XDD

Night.

Mmm!

"The only thing worse than not knowing is you thinking that I don't know." - Fallout Boy, 7 Minutes In Heaven

HAI PEEPS.

Anyway. I really really want to write about my devotion onnnn Friday night. ;p

I know some of you guys won't want to read this. but I'm writing it anyway.

HAHA.

Okay, so I've been a very good girl, doing my devotion everyday since camp. Go me! On Friday night, I thought, okay, I'll just flip to some random page and start reading.

So I started reading Job.

I came to the chapter where Job was comparing his life from when God was with him and when God "abandoned" him. He was bragging, all "Ohh I have done so many good things, the beggars and the blind loved me, I am pure and have never touched another woman other than my wife, I have always given my tithes, as well as money to the poor..." blablabla.

I think that a lot of people find this bragging quality in Christians nowadays.

Then Job went on, saying "But now God has left me! I don't know what I have done, I'm such a poor thing, I have done no wrong and yet God has abandoned me.." blablabla.

ENDLESS BABBLE.

Anyway, suddenly this YOUNG MAN named Elihu came onto the scene. I was like, I have never heard of this guy! Okay...

He's sitting there listening to Job complain and complain and whinge and whine, and he eventually gets SO fed up that he stands up and whack Job nicely.

"I'm a young man,

and you are all old and experienced.

That's why I kept quiet

and held back from joining the discussion.

I kept thinking,"Experience will tell

The longer you live, the wiser you become."

But I see I was wrong - it's God's Spirit in a person,

the breath of the Almighty One, that makes wise human

insight possible."

Sooooo what I'm trying to say here as that, hey! Just coz we're young and naive, doesn't mean that we're more foolish or stupider than the older ones. Job was such an idiot, complaining about his life, blaming everyone else and God for his shortcomings. Then Elihu, this unknown, young man steps in and belasah's him.

HAH!

So that concludes my devotion. ;p Hopefully I'll keep getting cool stuff to tell you guys from the Bible!

I just got back from jogging, so I'm dead tired.

Last Few Grains of Sand.

"But you were everything to me, I was begging you please don't go." - Love Story, Taylor Swift.

It's the end of the first week since going back to school!

If you are still alive, please give yourself a hand.

;p

Anyway. Ben's leaving on the 13th. Which would be next Tuesday.

OHMIGOSHHH. ;.;

So yeah. Soon enough, it'll be Philip's turn.

-bawl-

Okay! 

No more emo-ing. .3.

Should I join cheerleading?

Yes.

No.

Maybe.

I think I will. XD

But I don't know who the freaking captain is! O: It's probably Alya though. Alya. Alia. Don't know how to spell her name. Oh yes. In other news that all of you probably already know, I am the president of the Photograpy Club.

The golden rule of the Photography Club shall be (and this rule is sacred):

CAM-WHORING IS NOT PHOTOGRAPHY.

NOT.

NOT.

There. I said it. 8D

Anyway.

MY MYSPACE LAYOUT ISN'T WORKINGGG. I DON'T KNOW WHY AND ITS PISSING ME OFF. NYAAAAAAAAAAR! D:

Tequila, I need help. ;.;

so call me greedy.

To Write Love On Her Arms, it's actually a support group for teens with suicidal tendencies, especially cutting.  I support 100%, baby.

SUPER CUTE DANCING KITTY CATS! From Hot Topic.

I love this. Love love love. XD I should wear this. I want this. Thing is, I have to order it online, and it's EXPENSIVE.

I LOVE ALICE IN WONDERLAAAAAAAAAAAAND!

Since I don't have legs like those (if only, if only), I'll settle for the shoes. Gorgeous, gorgeous shoes. Sighhh.... From L.A.M.B.

Heartbreaker clothing!!

More heartbreaker clothing!! I love this one, it says "Haters Make Me Famous." Yeah, baby, yeah!

Oh, Tyson.

"When you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell." - All American Rejects, Gives You Hell.

Oh Tyson.

When I see your face

It gives me hell

Because

I can't have you.

WHY CRUEL WORLD, WHYYYY?!

squee~

"Wrap your arms around me until your knuckles turn white." - All American Rejects, Breakin'

I've never really tried analysing a photo before. So I'm going to attempt. XD

This is by KA-SI on Deviantart, it's called Stay. Original link is http://ka-si.deviantart.com/art/Stay-103741259

Okay.

Her dress and the balloon seem to symbolise a childishness that isn't forgotten. She wears them like a little girl would wear as many colourful ribbons in her hair as possible. She's by the sea and the wind and salt is blowing in her hair, blowing hard so that the balloon is bent at a 180 degree angle. She seems to be enjoying the wind, facing it as it comes towards her. She can smell the salt and the sea. It makes her happy. Her kiddy dress is slipping down her womanly body, so she pulls it to keep it up, to keep up a memory, perhaps.

HAHA.

Okay. That was my rather pathetic attempt at "analysing" a photograph. It's one of my favourite fashion photographs. (:

Anyway. First day back at school. I wrote 4A2 everywhere at first. XD

I sit with Mishi!! ^^ Which is good, coz she doesn't get too mad at me. :X Lol. MISH, I need your help lah. Don't swear around me!! XD All of ya'll, actually. I'm trying to kick the habit, need your helps. :P

Aqila sits all the way on the other side of the class with Farah. ;.; Keilly sits in the same row, but right at the back.

I get a window seat. :3

I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE TO GO TO FREAKING SINTA FOR MORAL. AAAAAAAAAAAUGH.

Utter Hell.

Anyway. I should probably try and get to sleep before my mother tries to force me under the blanket. Soo, goodnight, my little chickadees! Haha.

Resolutions?

"You can have my heart, you don't have to steal anymore." - All American Rejects, Fallin' Apart.

Am I going to make any resolutions for 2009?

Probably not.

Or maybe I will.

And hopefully keep to them.

Maybe I won't.

And do whatever it is I planned to resolve without knowing.

That didn't make any sense, did it?

:P

YI LYN'S BACK!!

Lol. I missed her.

School starts. Very very soon.

Like, in one day.

I'm going to try not to be pessimistic about school. Because it is inevitable.

And it's ending.

This is my last year of high school and I'm definitely going to try and make the very best of it. 

I'm really loving Mark's and Spencer's Extremely Chocolatey White Chocolate Biscuit Rounds.

Just so you guys know. (:

ITS ONLY 13 RINGGIT!

XD

I'm so greedy.

My headaches are gone, so thats lovely.

I've got some lunch housewarming to go to tomorrow. And get this - I haven't washed my school shoes yet. O:

Whitener is the way to go.

"You can sit beside me when the world comes down." - All American Rejects, Mona Lisa.

In case you haven't guessed already, I've got the AAR album on my computer. ;p

It's GOOD. Not like, wundaba good, but good anyway. (:

Urgh.

How did I spend New Year's Eve?

Shopping, then in church. That was LOADS of fun, lol.

How did I spend New Year's Day?

Asleep, with a throbbing headache.

I don't know WHY. It's been here all day, like this big fat animal sitting on top of my head. I can feel its heartbeat pulsing against my skull. It's a big fat animal.

It hurts.

I've been sleeping all day long. Morning, got up feeling awful, had to vaccuum the house coz there were guests coming over. Took a bath, went back to sleep.

Missed lunch.

Woke up, went to the living room onto the couch and slept somemore. Woke up when the guests left. Dragged myself back to the room and slept again.

I ate a little bit of mushroom soup. But I didn' manage to finish it. Felt nauseous, thank God I didn't throw up.

Woke up at 7-something, nearly 8. Missed dinner, so I had my own dinner of Hazelnut and Chocolate spread on McVities' and the rest of my mushroom soup.

I felt much much better. But the big fat animal is back. I'll probably turn in early today.

I MUST GET BETTER. 

So that I can go to Robinson's tomorrow and buy that dress Mom and I saw.

Yi Lyn's back!! ^^

Too lazy to put in colour.

There's alot of phlegm coming out of me. Ew.

I feel heaty.

Night.