Broken Promises.

"The helium balloon disappears into the sky ; You said you loved me and I kind of believed that ; But these days, who knows what it means." - Last Words, The Real Tuesday Weld.

So I'm pretty sure I failed the No Cussing challenge. I was doing okay till Khai's birthday party. We played a very intense game of Taboo and all the swear words came out XDD
I guess it's pretty funny, but in retrospect, I feel pretty bad about it. PLUS, I was reading my Bible last night (FINALLEHHHH~) and a verse kind of got me. This is in the Message version :

You say, "If someone makes a promise with his fingers crossed, that's nothing ; but if he swears with his hand on the Bible, that's serious." What ignorance! Does the leather on the Bible carry more weight than the skin on your hands? And what about this piece of trivia : "If you shake hands on a promise, that's nothing, but if you raise your hand that God is your witness, that's serious"? What ridiculous hairsplitting! What difference does it make whether you shake hands or raise hands? A promise is a promise. What difference does it make if you make your promise inside or outside a house of worship? A promise is a promise. God is present, watching and holding you to account regardless."
Matthew 23 : 16 - 22

So yeah, I think you can guess why I feel bad about failing the challenge. I was quite gung ho about it, I really thought I could do it. It's SO hard! I didn't think it'd be that hard, but it really was.
I feel bad coz I not only broke the promise I made to myself, but to God as well. I guess I didn't realise that He was "present, watching and holding [me] to account regardless."

I think like this alot. If you make a promise to God, it's like, ULTIMATE seriousness, and promises to anyone or anything else doesn't hold as much weight. This verse kind of woke me up and made me say, you know what, every promise made is important, whether it's that you'll finish your homework, or that you'll call someone after tuition or that you'll listen to a song someone sent to you.

I don't know if I'll try the challenge again, I might. I'm not so sure yet. :/
Anyway.
;p